2013

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      Wow! What an amazing year 2012 has been. For me it was a time of renewal and change, moving on from the past and getting out of my hometown to start something new. And now as the new year begins I have been compiling a list of resolutions to try and accomplish throughout the year. I know many people think resolutions can be cliche but to me, they are symbols of hope and faith in not only yourself but also the new year. 

My Resolutions: 

• Go to China.
• Pass all my classes.
• Get a new Tattoo.
• Read something everyday.
• Be honest in everything I do.
• Be FEARLESS. 

     I am also going to try to participate in a 2013 bible challenge if any of you are interested. It seems like a really enlightening way to start the year: Bible Challenge.

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Just remember if you set your mind to it, you can do it. 

Much love,

Kenzie

Something Different

     I know it has been awhile since I've blogged. And honestly, I've been avoiding it. This past semester has been an emotional whirlwind of worry and stress and quite frankly it was probably best that I took a break.
     I feel as if every day I grow into something else, or in a more practical sense, a bigger, better, smarter version of who I was yesterday. I have learned to let go of things holding me back but also at the same time make peace with those things as well. It happened, it's over, today is a new day. I find myself upset less and less. I have become acquainted with school, now longing to return to my new home. These past couple of weeks with family have been tremendous and wonderful. God has surely blessed me with a great set of parents who love me dearly.

     And so brings me to my point of this post. I know I have few followers, but they are still followers. And when I created this blog I made a goal to hold on to my responsibility and share with others my viewpoints on how I feel about everything in this beautiful life, both dark and light. My goal is to be as real and down to earth as possible. I have a lot of aspirations for this blog and I believe that if I keep trying eventually it will help me with my future career. I am an avid reader of abeautifulmess.typepad.com, and her post today was the 365 day photo challenge. She spoke of how it inspired her because of how she changed over the course of one year. This got me thinking, as of right now I am evolving and a lot of things happening in my life are hard to take in and are sometimes very overwhelming. But how awesome would it be to just try to embrace the change. So. I've decided that as of 2013, I will be me. I will be who I am supposed to be and bear no shame in sharing with others my love of adventure, fashion, beauty, music, and best of all writing. I will try to post daily photos of my life/self portraits and share with you guys via this blog. I want to target my hobbies and really try to bring out the best in everything. 

Until next time,
Kenzie

Stuck in a Funk

     It's been almost three months on my own and they honestly feel like the longest three months of my life. I thought by leaving and starting over I would be happy but I find myself in a continuous rut, it's the same problems that follow me, just a different place. I can't put my finger on why I've been so down, the only solution is that I long to see a familiar face around here. It's been a struggle for me to make very many friends here because I have been so busy with my classes. I'm scared if I will even pass math, I hate it so much, but I'm determined to keep trying. Everyone has been telling me the first year is the hardest and I hope that they are right. Before I came here I imagined my life as being full of fun and new adventure, finding friends with similar interests, excelling in my classes, working out all the time, and just being all around fabulous. But that is not the case at all. Instead I've found myself drowning in school work, no time management skills whatsoever, constantly missing my family and my boyfriend, feeling heartache because people are all the same wherever I go, and the walls of my dorm are literally closing in on me. I don't know what to do. I'm so used to seeing someone I know everyday, and then I go to not knowing anyone, spending weekends alone, with nothing to do in this tiny room.

     I keep thinking to myself that maybe I will be happier if I move into an apartment, but then what? I will really be alone. Sammy is only home every other week. At least here I can access the campus facilities simply by walking, if I got an apartment I'd have to find some way of transportation to the campus. I just can't put my finger on my wants right now or even my needs. I feel trapped... I'm having second thoughts on the the things that I was so set on only a few months ago. Now, I'm not even sure what I should do.

Advice would be greatly appreciated,

Kenzie.

Video Compilation of Our Ireland Trip

So... Here is the video compilation of Sammy and I. It is so beautiful. I worked so hard on it, and I hope that you guys get to enjoy a bit of what we did. Thanks.<3

September Goals

    I know most people have already posted their goals for this month, so I decided to create my own. I'm the girl that's always making post it notes throughout the week, trying my best to accomplish everything on the list. So I created this list to try to finish by the end of September.

(Watercolor by yours truly)

What are your goals? Do you have any songs that inspire you to do more? I chose this song, because it's the first song I learned on the guitar. It reminds me of around this time of year because that's when I really got into guitar.<3

Much love,

Kenzie

Lately.

     I know that it has been a while since I've posted anything but I have been so swamped with everything that I honestly have not had time. I am busy, but happy. I've been living here in Denton for about two weeks now and although at times I get lonely or sad I still have my phone, that helps me communicate with my parents and friends while I'm away. Phone calls, messages, and Facebook have literally helped me overcome any fears about being away from home.
      I'm so excited to say that Sammy came down and visited me this weekend. We had a really fun time, Friday afternoon we went to the Movie Tavern and watched "Killer Joe." It was a really creepy movie, so if you like to be weird and creeped out then this is the movie for you. Friday night we went to a local hookah bar and laughed with friends. I didn't much like the actually hookah but the environment was fun.
     Saturday was game day and we kicked it off with tail gating at the campus hill, after a home victory we went and hung out with a few of my friends and ate at hamburger joint.
     This morning Sammy and I woke up, went and watched ANOTHER movie, "Lawless" which was very good, and afterwards had dessert. We ended our day playing pool and laying around in my room. I know this probably isn't the most interesting to everyone else, but I just want to be sure to remember what a wonderful time I had this weekend. Life seems good right now, and I hope that it remains this way and only continues to be brighter from here.

    None the less, it is so hard to say goodbye to this sweet boy. I can't wait until we see each other again. 

Much love,

Kenzie.

Spirit Animal + Give Away

Do you believe in spirit animals? I do. I feel lately like I've been really wanting to connect with mine, because I feel as if she has something very wise to offer me. My spirit animal is a deer, I have felt strongly connected with this animal since I rescued a baby deer about a year ago. Sometimes there are moments in your life where something just clicks, and you automatically understand what kind of lesson that nature is trying to teach, the kind of message that God is trying to send you. I wanted to share some links with you about spirit animals.

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"Deer, Power Animal, Symbol of Gentleness, Unconditional Love and Kindness"

Some of you may be wondering, "What is a spirit animal?" Well... 

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I also found this interesting "How to" page on focusing on your spirit animal, maybe perhaps I need to focus more on this. 

Also! There is a give away on Blue Eyed Night Owl's blog by Woodland Dwellers! Is an owl your spirit animal? You can earn extra entries by blogging about it as well. And I thought well, this would be perfect! She sells different animal totems. I thought that they would be adorable for around the garden.

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Do you have a spirit animal? If so what kind is it and why? And even if you don't... Which animal do you think would be yours? What animals inspire you to act as a better being?

Much love,

Kenzie